Yes, I have been waiting a whole year to be able to use the Taylor Swift song, 22 in some way to reference my 22nd Birthday. This past Easter Weekend, I turned 22 on April 19th and believe it or not in 1992 I was actually born on Easter. This post is less about my birthday and more about a reflection on my friends, school and life over the past year.
My 21st birthday was awesome. I had a shotbook party which may or may not be foreign to most of you and it was one of the most memorable and fun nights of my college experience. Things have really changed since then though. I am a senior in college and I am looking forward to graduating this coming December, life has had it's ups and downs and really so has my social life.
I am too busy, too driven and really sometimes too lazy to go out to a bar and stay out all night. The older I get [I feel ancient] the more clear everything about my previous years is becoming. I should have really emerged myself in so many other things when I started college. I also should have branched way out when finding friends instead of just depending on girls in my sorority. I also should have realized that my generation specifically only cares about their selves and will never truly care about me or anything I care about.
Throughout my life, true friendship has never been something I have experienced. Currently, I have few great friends that I love dearly, some that are not what I thought they were and others that fall somewhere in between. I realize that not everyone "gets me" as a person. My hair is sometimes too big, I sometimes overdress for the simplest of occasions and I have an unhealthy love for my cat Bentley, but that's how I've always been and I will always be. If you don't get that, then I really no longer care.
Manipulation is not a game I play, maybe I should. It seems to work for some people. I think anything you really want in life should come from hard work not turning tables to make someone seem like the bad guy to get them to do what you want. I have done a lot for others even when I didn't want to, but I have never gotten any help in return. People used to give back what they were given, but the world just doesn't work like that anymore.
Even though my mother doesn't always think I listen to her, I do. Everything she says does have merit even though I might hate hearing her say it at the time. No, I don't always like going home when she tells me to [when I do go out that is], I don't like cleaning my house, I don't even like hearing the somewhat "constructive criticism" that she says. But as much as I hate to admit it, she is really always right, about everything. And Mom, I don't hate you haha. I love you and I know you know that.
I have already moved on mentally from Kentucky, but I am ready to physically move on as well. I can't wait for new places, new experiences and new people that will finally understand me, I hope. I still have time left here and I will cherish every moment with my few wonderful friends, you know who you are.
People change a lot and throughout high school and college I have had to change faster than everyone else. Growing up this quickly is not something I wanted to do, but it wasn't really an option for me. For all of you that wished me a Happy Birthday I greatly apreciate it!
Now here's a look at my birthday and outfit!
Outfit Details:
Hat: Calvin Klein
Dress: Bar III
Cupcake: Gigi's
Bracelet and Earrings: Kate Spade
Kitty Cat Bow tie: Dollar Store
